Haiya

Okay. 2am, I really cannot sleep.
Tossed and turned in bed for 2 hours, suddenly caught a cold. ???????

This is November.
I think it's 7 days to A levels hahaha what.
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To be frank, HAHA I am very scared. I don't know, it just feels like I have learnt nothing; I don't know how to enter the hall with this emptiness in my mind. I don't even want to go back to school. I don't know if this is denial or stress or really what's going on.

"I'm not lonely, I'm just alone."

The other day I caught One Day with S. I didn't really enjoy it, haha. Can't help but compare it with the book, ended up having those disappointments popping up here and there. Still cried though. The story is still beautiful, still love Em and Dex. My first time feeling such strong attachment to characters from a book. Hahaha. Well. I don't really know why. Maybe I'm lured into these hard-to-be-true (not untrue) stories of life again. I guess so. But we lead such lame lives, seriously what's the meaning then? Haha. Not that we need some sort of enlightenment or hear some calling and be all philosophical about the "meaning of life", but why can't we perhaps you know, think a little deeper (not more, just deeper) about ourselves and just erm, add a little more substance....

I meant to say we've been so shallow. This is generalisation and a sweeping statement. Haaa.

"Some memories are meant to be forgotten."

..... I KNOW RIGHT.
Hahahaha sigh.

"If you're a bird, I'm a bird."
Oh, Noah. Or Ryan Gosling. Hahaha kidding. Noah.

I don't know why I can fall asleep within 10 minutes in the middle of the day but at night I just cannot...even if I think I'm sleepy. .....bloody hell. Hahaha

I'm not even excited for Prom now, actually. HAHA. I'm not feeling anything. My hair is getting longer, I'm starting it to find it a nuisance. HAHA. Everything's a nuisance now.

I want to walk away from my study table and help my grandma with her 100+ bead flowers.
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Oh yes. Arashi has a new single! Hahahaha. Have been listening to it on YouTube for the past 2 days, argh so troublesome. And today... I realised I already know how to sing it... ?!?! 什么跟什么的, wrong thing to keep in mind. I had nuclear physics staring at me while I mouthed the chorus of Meikyuu Love Song. うわあ、ダメだ! (*｀へ´*)

やべえ。

Omg okay 2.23am already fuuuuu okay just close those eyes.