do you know what i'm trying to say: university and a whole lot of crap

haaaaaa i have been very lazy here.

life's normal.

i haven't quite talked about my university plans yet, have i? hahaha i kinda feel i've been pretty quiet about it, well at least on social media i am. anyway, lets be honest. i did not manage to produce the results that i had hoped for, so to me, i had basically screwed up my entire A levels. and as expected, i was rejected of my desired courses in the local unis. and because there is no way that you can possibly force me into studying engineering or the common science courses (even if it is at nus or ntu), as i am a strong believer of the importance of studying what you love - and realistically, do what you know you will do well in, so i have decided to go ahead with my backup plan - SIM.

"ohhhhh, the dumping ground."

are you thinking that? that's right, it is kinda the dumping ground for rejected applicants like me. initially i wasn't certain of this decision; was feeling weary about my future because a degree here would definitely not be as honourable as a degree bearing the name of nus or ntu. nonetheless, i read up on the degrees that SIM offers, its recognition and all that history, and spent a good amount of time deciding on the right course to apply for. (fyi, SIM's application fee is like... 7 times the amount for the local unis hahaha) in the end i chose Econs and Management under University of London. i think this choice is... quite me. Aha. as of today, i have been accepted (erm...... honestly, if they were to reject me.......i will ask my sister from ministry of education to take some form of legal action against their admission committee ha ha ha okay just kidding. don't be irritating and think this is bitchy, but c'mon, if you hadn't flunk your a levels like really FLUNK, anyone would have been accepted.), and it's just left with registering with UOL and settling all the admission procedure before all the orientation begins in July, and school starting in mid August. (yay!)

i've really thought a lot these past few months (can you believe it, it's already June. okay, i couldn't quite believe that half a year has gone past just like that. the feeling of not schooling for such a long time is just too odd.) - mostly about my future, because there's so much about it to think about: where i would be; where i would be that leads me to where i will be; where i will be leading to what i would be; and blah blah blah blah...blah. then it made me realise; or figure out; or see; or if they all mean the same thing; that i'm gonna have a plan involving many plans for the next 3 years, and can't wait for it to start hahaha.

i'm quite pumped up for SIM-UOL, because they have partnership with London School of Economics andddddd because my course is under UOL, andddddd I do study Econs, soooooo i think i do stand a good chance for the summer abroad program at LSE...!!!! (yay!!!!!!) but of course, it should be a 2013 or 2014 thing, but it all starts with a small idea, then you generate it into a bigger idea when it is time to sign up for it, and finally achieve it when you can, well, achieve it. hehe so this is plan 1a.

plan 2, internship. (oh my god haha am i really thinking too far??? HAHA)

okay anyway. must. beat. the. local uni applicants. and. win. the. internship. at. mfa.

must. win. the. local uni applicants. must. win. !!!!

so in order to achieve plan 2,

plan 1b, erm, i'm still unsure about the grading system (lol) but anyway it is just to stay at the top. i presume my A level grades are considered above average for SIM, so i gotta maintain at that range. yes okay.

then finally plan 3: first class honours.

ha ha ha ha okay so they are what makes me look forward to school, and also being totally open and motivated about studying in SIM. i'm really thankful for my family for being so supportive towards my decision (': i can't think of any reason why i shouldn't be contented or positive with whatever that's coming.

and yes, who says you can't kick asses even if you graduate with a less reputable degree? anddd because i will be graduating one year earlier than my peers of my batch = am gonna meet society first = at least i am clear of competition with them for a year = am gonna start climbing first and make sure they don't climb ahead of me.

haha don't be stupid, every one has a bitch in them.

yeehaa~

okay, it was unbelievably tiring writing on all that... university... stuff.

caught a few movies in May: avengers, 21 jump street (damn funny haha), dark shadows, MIB3.

I think MIB3 is the best movie i've watched this year. Will Smith adds a lot of points to it haha, but i genuinely feel that the story at the end was pretty powerful. and of course it was very funny hahahaha

oh and about MIB3, holy shizzzz Will Smith and Tommy Lee Jones went on VS Arashi hahahaha aaaahhh.

lol okay this is a bad screencap. it's hard to explain how awesome it is for them to be on vs arashi.... haha so.. it's okay, you don't have to know if you don't aha.

hehe.

since we're on arashi... yay my copy of BW concert dvd came last week!!!

hehehehehehe.

on thursday i took a halfday leave and headed to the PC show with nellyn - we bought a Canon camera! hehe. wanted a camera for myself a long time (okay fine, only ever since i joined Canon haha), i think PC show is the best time to get it, because of alllll the freebies that comes with your purchase hahaha. had in mind to get Canon's Powershot compact camera, but i was still fair, i went around the other brands to check out their cameras too. sidetracking a bit from what im gonna say: many asked me why didn't i wanna get a dslr instead. 1, it is way over my budget. i do not need such an expensive camera, which leads me to point 2, i am not a professional photographer with the professional set of photography skills that is worthy of carrying a dslr. because 3, dslr takes amazing shots, i know, i know. there is a reason why it is so bloody expensive. its lens work wonders and i have absolutely no clue how to use them wisely and creatively. therefore 4, i do not think that i am worthy enough to own a dslr because it will be an insult to the professionals out there who some, even risk their lives to take incredible shots for the world to see. and of course 5, duhhhhh, i cannot afford one / it is not reasonable for my family to spend on one since indulging on expensive hobbies was never what we were keen at. so 6, i do not see a reason why i should buy a dslr just because... "a dslr camera is a true camera." (i did not make this up, someone said this to me.) ohhhkayyy, so what are the others? clay models??? haha this is a very long sidetrack note.

back to the pc show - so i went around visiting the other big camera brands like Nikon, Olympus and Fujifilm, and asked the sales promoter the same question: why do you think your camera is better than the others?

....WELL... IT IS NOT WRONG TO ASK THAT, ISN'T IT?

anyway to cut the story short, i'm not being biased but, Canon's salesmen gave me the best answers. not best maybe, but most satisfying answers. it makes me feel assured in buying their products, even if perhaps Nikon has the best cameras or something. who are we to know, anyway?

so i have burnt a big hole in my bank account after that purchase. can't wait for the 14th.

on friday i went to kinokuniya after work before meeting the girls at holland village for dinner hehe. i sure know how to make use of the time i have. and so..... i bought yet another book. it's The Wind Up Bird Chronicle by Murakami. wheee~

had a very satisfying meal at yoshimaru ramen bar that joyce brought us to! i am lazy to upload the photo of the ramen but it was very gooooood. so yummy, it tasted like one of those authentic ramen I ate in Tokyo. i think i'll go back there again! hehe

it was a great evening spent with the girls~

(as jeannica has blogged before me, and i am about to say the same thing as she had because we feel the same, i am just going to extract from her post haha)

even though we don't usually meet up often and even when we do, it's only for a meal and we mostly do frivolous chat, just being around them makes me incredibly happy and content.

yeah (': it's so comforting to know how we don't have to be pretentious around each other. like, it's okay to be quiet - because the rest knows you're really listening; it's okay to be the only one talking - because you can be assured that the rest are willing to listen to you; or it's okay to say something totally random or stupid - because the rest knows it is genuine (like, genuinely stupid or random LOL) and we just make fun of it and have a good laugh together. (':

sometimes we hang out with certain groups of people...thinking they're your best friends, but not knowing that you're not exactly yourself when you're with them? then it becomes so hard to catch up, why not just forget it? which is why.......................i am not sure of meeting some of my acquaintances after such a long time....... really? do we need it? do we want to? i don't know man..... it wasn't really a memorable 2 years, was it? ................... bleh.

i am going to submit my resignation letter tomorrow, yay! gonna end my 6-month contract 2 weeks earlier because 1, i really need a break haha and 2, quite a bit to do before school starts! my mum has plans on going to bali to "relax" (lol she keeps saying, "i need to relax. i need to find a place to relax myself" haha buay tahan), but idkkkk if it'll workout as projected since she is still going to be busy in the coming month. oh well. staying home sounds good too, anyway! ^~^

gonna end this post here because i don't want to sleep too late and i want to watch vs arashi hahahaha.

oh oh ohhhhhh i caught last week's shiyagare where they did an outdoor shooting at Mount Takao!!! so nice so scenery i also wanna go ))))): AAAAHHHHHH ARRRGHJHJAHSJDHYAIUSENUOA

ohhh and Aiba took such a stupid photo hahahahahahahahahahahahah okay spazzing.