Feeling strangely calm about this; kinda puzzled how people make a big fuss about their 21st. Except that I do feel a tinge of sadness knowing that I'm leaving being 20 for good. I liked being 20 - older than the teens but younger than the twenties. 20 was a pretty cool age, I thought. Anyway. I used to be a lot more excited about my birthday; you'd think, "this is my day!!!", but at the end of it when the clock turns to April 1, there was this feeling of emptiness that floated by. I didn't really like that. So now, at age 21, I figured out that it's better to treat my birthday as an ordinary day, perhaps enjoy it a little more because of lovely people in my life who are beside me, so yknow, when it turns to April 1 again, there won't be so much of that emptiness.
Anyway.
This year we stayed home for the birthday dinner, mainly because my dad is currently physically not-very-mobile with the big, heavy cast on his leg (haha), and it was still a great one. Ordered pizzas and sashimi, cooked chicken nuggets and wings. Haha it was quite a spread! They're probably not fancy food, but it was an awesome dinner because everyone was there at the dining table, eating and chatting. Oh and Junior (my dog) didn't had to be home-alone! So he was there too, lying beside my foot lol. No one was using their phones, no one was uncomfortable. Short, but a very full dinner. Literally and non.
Entering my 21st year of life, very thankful for the love and warmth we've got. Although most of the time we still kinda piss each other off (haha), I'm happy we're a healthy and bonded family. 幸せです。
Friends ask me what I want for my birthday, to be honest there's really nothing I want. I'm pretty much contented with everything that I have. And I know, if there's one thing that I really really want, I can only work hard to achieve it myself. Right now I wish all the best of health and happiness unto my family and my close friends, and of course myself. I hope dad will drive again after he recovers and we'll go on food trips again. I hope mum will have a better time at work, my grandma to be as healthy as ever. My sisters to be successful in both their careers and love life. Me? I hope I'll make it and bring home that good Honours.
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Wanted to write something about Spring.
Lately I've been seeing too many photos of cherry blossoms starting to bloom or have already bloomed in Japan (and other countries too.. but it was all Japan hahah). Because SPRING!!!
I've only experienced summer and winter, but I think I can say that spring is my favourite season. Words cannot describe (also because I am lazy to) how much I want to be in Japan right now, to feel the spring breeze, to see and touch the pretty flowers. Another reason I feel particularly attached to spring is because my birthday falls in the season, so you know, it feels great HAHAH.
This year I got to visit the cold winter season in Japan, especially memorable because I was there when Tokyo was hit by the heaviest snowfall in 45 years. I remember how the snow drove the train lines, highways and roads crazy, but mostly pissed people off because it got in the way of life. Though affected as well, when my flight there was delayed for 2 hours and flight back was delayed for 23 hours 35 mins (lol yes it was this long), I enjoyed snowy Tokyo a lot, since it was the first time I ever saw and touched snow (hahaha).
Winter in the West was worse. Remember reading/watching news reports of crazy snow storms in the east coast of US? Felt the bitterness of winter, how snow is not always as exciting and as beautiful as we thought, unless you're talking about the Swiss Alps or something.
This winter experience I got from Japan made it even more heartwarming and thankful to see that Spring is here. Spring kinda feels like the season of hope to me (hehe). Winter was long and cold, but however bitter, it will pass, spring will come and flowers will bloom. Flowers will bloom no matter what you're going through - happiness, struggle, confusion. Flowers will bloom because spring is here, hope is here. The spring breeze will envelop your soul and warm your heart. I reaaaally yearn to feel this breeze, in japanese, 'harukaze', and smell the sweetness of the air (I REALLY THINK THERE IS SWEET AIR), and be surrounded by rows and rows of cherry blossom trees. As the snow that winter left behind slowly fades away, what comes next is the gentle falling of spring petals. Spring is like the season of life, too. Oh, and of warmth!
Hehe, thankful to be born in spring :)
Hehe, thankful to be born in spring :)
Ending this post with 2 great photos of the gorgeous cherry blossoms! Pris in Shanghai sent me the first photo, and the second is snagged from one of my favourite instagrammers, @yashimatakumi
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